An Oppertunity!

My beloved cousin Danny and I are transferring to the same school next year! It's for sure, set in stone and legit now! I can't wait!

The weather has been beautiful here on the east coast. The sun has been shining and it has been 90 F for the last three days. AMAZING!!!

Going back to my transferring, however, I have been confronted with yet another decision in my life. I have been asked to apply for a position as an RA in school next year. I don't know whether or not I should do so. Part of me wants to because I want to be effective and learn and help others to learn and grow and become mature. But part of me isn't sure that I'm ready or good enough to be in an authority position. Although, I will be older than most of my girls, I've still never been in that kind of position over people so close to my own age. It's an exciting prospect though. Any input?

Life is defined by exciting decisions!

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I have a friend who I turn to when I need to do something spontaneous. We tromp in the mud, take long drives, cuddle on her couch and read essays, compare and contrast ourselves constantly, mainly--we love to cuddle and read. We don't agree on everything, just the basics, but we love each other like sisters.

I think she is a lesbian. I am not uncomfortable with her at all but I don't know whether I should stop cuddling with her or not or if I should say anything to her potential roommate for next year.

Saturday we have a lovely day planned together. Usually our times together are simply fabulous and filled with surprises.

Single Forever

My friend is in my room now filling out an evaluation form for one of her classes. She is required to evaluate her future husband...except she has no idea who she is.

We are now making stuff up.

I find it really interesting to find out what kinds of things my friends look for in the opposite sex.

Braids Girl wants a guy who will brush her hair for hours on end.
Unconventional wants a girl who is extremely gentle and will cry in his arms when she is upset.
Roommate is looking for a guy who will give her tons of oppertunity to be submissive.
My aunt always wanted a guy who didn't want onions.
Friend Boy wants a girl who can actually tolerate him.
Almost Brother needs a girl who can keep him interested for more than ten seconds

All this makes me realize that I look for so many things in a guy. I like to be treated well and to be completely honest, lots of guys don't live up to my standards. I don't just want to be treated like a girl--I want to be treated like a princess because that's what I deserve.

Life is defined by realizing that maybe you were destined to be single forever.

(Danny--You and me are living in Colleen's attic!)

For Vivienne!

1. What time did you get up this morning?
I woke up at six but I didn't need to get up so I spent a half hour or so praying and then proceded to go back to sleep and get up at eight.



2. Diamonds or pearls?
diamonds on the average day. but i like wooden or polymer beads best.



3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
I think it was I AM LEGEND...that was more than a year ago.



5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
A hand full of Kashi cereal of some kind, an apple, fruit snacks or something



6. What is your middle name?
Michelle--like the Beatles song



7. What food do you dislike?
meat...even then, i'm down with a good steak once in a while



8. What is your favourite CD at moment?

Blink 182 or Lecrae (both self titled)


9. What kind of car do you drive?
That would be a Jeep Grand Cherokee

10. Favourite sandwich?
Homemade white bread, cucumber, spinach, tomato, roasted red pepper, salt, black pepper, kale, smoked paprika, swiss, feta, olive oil

11. What characteristic do you despise?
Apathy and disrespect for others

12. Favourite item of clothing?
My blue and green silk kimono. mmmm!!!

13. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go?
ha--Austrailia, Japan, San Fransisco, Greece, or Seattle

14. Favourite brand of clothing?
Abercrombie or American Eagle

15. Where would you retire to?
Retire? HA! Probably not. Greece.

17. Favourite sport to watch?
Football? eh...men's tennis...snowboarding.

18. Furtherest place you are sending this?
Whoever reads it. Maybe Austrailia?

19. Person you expect to send it back first?
Whoever cares to do so

20. When is your birthday?
July 18. TATTOO DAY!

21. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Either, though I generally prefer mornings

22. What is your shoe size?
US 5.5. Small feet

23. Pets?
Two cats (both stupid) and I used to have a rat called Jemima

24. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us?
Danny has informed me via text message more than twenty times in the last week that she cannot wait for her new coat to come or to go to college up north next year so that she can show it off. She also says to inform everyone that she wants scene hair and is thinking about growing hers long again just so that she can make it "scene". Yes...if you don't read Danny's blog you're missing out, she's a character.

25. What did you want to be when you were little?
A professional hockey player, a princess, a cowboy, and a cat

26. How are you today?
I've definately been better.

27. What is your favourite candy?
I would have to say Coffee Crisp bars--even though I have to go to Canada to get them.

28. What is your favourite flower?
Yellow roses and dasies

29. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to?
April 2, Danny's dance thing that I'm hoping to go and see

30. What is your full name?
Kite Michelle Beese

31. What are you listening to right now?
Mark Driscoll sermon--Trial and Scripture. No lie, it's good.

32. What was the last thing you ate?
cookies after lunch

33. Do you wish on stars?
yes, sir!

34. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
probably blue, calming and thoughtful. mmm.

35. How is the weather right now?
windy and 41 degrees F.

36. The first person you spoke to on the phone today?
I haven't talked on the phone today. But late last night I talked with Girl Who Smells Like a Cat. And this morning I texted Youth Pastor's Wife and Girl Who Picks on Fat People With Me.

37. Favourite soft drink?
I don't drink soft drinks.

38. Favourite restaurant?
Thali of India, Diamond's, or Esperto's

39. Real hair colour?
Dark brown. It's actually been its real color for a long time.

40. What was your favourite toy as a child?
My American Girl Doll or my collection of silk scarves

41. Summer or winter?
Summer all the way. Winter is depressing. I'll leave it to my cousin.

42. Hugs or kisses?
Mmm...I like both but as per recent events I am cutting back. Hugs only girls except on special occasions and no kisses until I know he is going to marry me.

43. Chocolate or Vanilla?
usually chocolate, but sometimes I can get a good strong vanilla craving

44. Coffee or tea?
mmm....depends. Harney and Sons tea is fabulous, as is fruit herbal tea...but I do enjoy a good cup of coffee once in a while

45. Do you want your friends to email you back?
usually when I send an e-mail, I hope for a reply

47. What is under your bed?
A basket full of my dirty laundry

48. What did you do last night?
Youth group, kicked serious BUTT against the boys in quizzing, counseling, cleaned my room, bothered the girls downstairs, called Girl Who Smells Like a Cat to ask about her new tattoo she got in memory of my mum.

49. What are you afraid of?
Horses--ridiculous, right?

50. Salty or sweet?
Salty except for some times of the month

51. How many keys on your key ring?
four...but one of them is to my grandma's car which is long gone and one I don't know what it goes to...

52. How many years at your current job?
currently an unemployed student until june when I start couseling

53. Favourite day of the week?
Sundays. I get to hang out with Blonde Soccer Boy which is the best, no pressure friendship because he's chill, i'm chill, and I love his girlfriend. Church. Then Youth Pastor's house with his four awesome children, video games, movies, and real homemade food!!!

54. How many towns have you lived in?
Two

55. Do you make friends easily?
YES! Yes, I do!

Simple really.

Ugh--I seem to have lost this habit of blogging which I find frightfully unfortunate as it is something I enjoy. But, for the nagging of my dear Danny I will try to start up again.

The last few weeks have been interesting. I moved into a private room, away from Roommate who was keeping me up too late at night. I've started painting again. I helped my cousin with an industrial piercing. I skipped girls movie night to make cards. And I drew a picture of a sheep farm. But mainly I have spent time thinking and examining my life.

Some things that I have learned recently:

-Being comfortable turns to apathy.
-Credibility comes through my life, not by my performances
-Am I worthy of immitation?
-God is going to put people in my path who I must provide for. My faith alone does them no good.
-God has not given us the truth to make us comfortable. The truth should not make me comfortable.
-Hope will not leave me disappointed.
-Total honesty with myself and the rest of the world is difficult but achieving it eliminates fear of others.
-I must forget about my failures...and my successes.
-Don't get cocky. I cannot make progress if I am content where I am.

Life is defined by learning simple, important truth.

Hair

All One Length Hair Girl came to me last night.

"Kite," she said, "Will you cut my hair?"

Now, you must understand, I am not trained in the art of hair cutting. I do keep my own extra short locks under control and have been known for doing little things such as trimming damaged ends, and fixing botched up bangs. I figured that she wanted a trim.

When I came to find her later, she informed me that she wanted it about shoulder length. This was a difference of about four inches. AND she also wanted it in some kind of style.

I think my jaw about hit the floor. This girl has been telling us how terrible layered hair is for most of the year (because when you braid it, ends stick out) and now she wants it layered. I was scared to death. I always get jitters even if I am just trimming someone's ends. I know that if I screw it up, it's my fault and my poor victim will tell all of their friends about how it is my fault that their hair cut sucks. But this girl wanted massive change and it about gave me a heart attack.

It made me think a little more about how society really does define people by their hair. I might say to my Roommate, "You know that guy? The one with the short, red hair?" and she would probably know that I was talking about Unconventional. Hair is one of the things we notice the most about people. When you put a group of girls together, an hour WILL NOT PASS without them talking about their hair, someone else's hair, guys' hair, Kiera Knightly's hair, etc. Our society is a little bit obsessed with hair.

I cut eighteen inches off my hair last June and now sport a funky short-cut which I love. It has been amazing to see how much it has affected people's perception of me. Whether it's making my Best Friend feel as though I look like a lesbian, or making Japanese Guy shower me with compliments because it is so "fresh" (<3). Some people like it, others don't. It's just how life is.

Anydots, I managed to give All One Length Hair Girl a pretty sweet bob cut which made her natural curls a lot more vivacious. I was pretty proud of myself. It looks very nice.

Life, unfortunately, is too often defined by hair.

Tough Choices

My dorm has strict rules about wearing your pajamas in the lounge. There are no pajamas permitted in the lounge or the stairwells until after curfew. This is basically a precaution so that we do not have girls running around in slutty pjs while there are boys in the dorm. I can understand that.

My mistake:

I changed into my pajamas early.
I made myself rice.
I did not eat all of my rice.
The refrigerator is on bottom floor.
I am on top floor.
I want to go to bed.

My dilemma: In order to put the rice in the refrigerator I would have to change into actual clothing to run it downstairs.

My choice: I am waiting until midnight when I will be allowed in the stairs with my pajamas so that I can put away my rice and go to bed.

Life is defined by frustrating, difficult choices.